After getting my attitude back in order I experienced something miraculous! The first miracle was when I stopped outside work in the parking lot and prayed. I, like many employees, often don't stop to thank God for my job. I thanked Him for my job and asked for His grace to focus, make productive use of my time, and that His will be done in all I do for these special people I serve. I prayed that all my co-workers will be inspired to do their best and be blessed today. Feeling totally amazing and filled with love I walked inside.
HR called me at 11 am to report that they caught an error. I had mistakenly not received my merit raise all the way back to September 2010. They are closing out this fiscal year this month so they caught it. She told me it would be the amount I needed to close another chapter in my life.
I have been married twice. The first time I was 18 and my husband was Catholic. I wasn't anything at that time and we decided to just get married in a little church up north that was United Methodist. I later joined that denomination for many years and served in ministry with them. We divorced after 15 years and it was a very amicable parting after years of struggle and suffering. We both paid a heavy price. Our sons were teenagers and we lived near each other so the boys could see each other and visit and all went well. He remarried a couple years later.
I met my second husband at a single's dance a year after my divorce. This was all before I was Catholic so anullment and such wasn't something I considered. When we got together I started RCIA. During that time they told me I'd need to get my first marriage annulled. I was checking into that when I became Catholic. When I stomped off two years later I still had not done anything about it. My second husband and I were married in 2005 by someone who was ordained and involved in his own ministry, not affiliated with any church. So basically I was Catholic and did not marry in the Catholic Church. My ex-husband and his wife attended our wedding and we all got along very well.
Sadly just a couple of years ago my first husband died very suddenly at the age of 50 from a massive heart attack. It was devastating to my sons and all of us who knew him. He was a fisherman, hunter, outdoorsman, scuba diver, and a gregarious, outgoing man who truly LOVED life. It was a loss I still feel and so does everyone else who knew and cared about him. He was cremated and buried in the same grave as my son who had died in 1996 and they rest together. His sons set his urn into it's resting place and I appreciated his widow allowing that. It meant a lot to them.
So when I returned to the church after having separated from my current husband there was nothing to prohibit my being reconciled to the faith and receiving the sacraments. We were living apart. He is in Flint and I am in Davison. I wanted to go forward with a divorce and end the last of the chaos I had created when I was out of the church and God's will for my life. I just didn't have a way to do it. So on this date something amazing happened that let me know it's time to move on. I received the money I needed to file the paperwork. I feel relieved but it's a mixed feeling. It seems un-Catholic to be filing for divorce but I am just grateful that God made a way where their appeared to be no way. God has shown me at least three times that this is His will in this difficult situation and that I need to clear away the wreckage of the past and move in a new positive direction...doing things HIS way and not my way.
I am humbled, amazed, and appreciative of the way God works in my life and the things He does for me.
